solat mama / forgive me

malam kemarin, saya perasan Faiq minta  susu berbotol-botol, biasa saya suruh dia tidor dulu sebab baru lepas minum. Tapi kali ni saya buat juga. Dia pun ucap thank you. Dalam tengah malam macam tu, saya di kejut oleh en hubby sebab minuman panas belum minum lagi. dengan tak sedar saya keluar sambil tutup mata kut sambil minum, pastu terbaring  depan TV kut, tapi en hubby kejutkan untuk tidor dalam bilik. saya pun rasa selesa rasa nak tido betul2 kali ni. Tetiba  Faiq kejutkan saya dengan memberi saya botol kosongnya. saya dengan mamun cakap nanti, tido dulu.

rasanya tak lama kemudian Faiq jerit mama solat lepas tu boleh buat susu, tapi saya ni sangat ngantuk sebab baru balik dari perjalanan jauh  hujung minggu, rasa memang longlai sangat. bila dah bangun waktu subuh. sedihnya saya tak buat susu untuk Faiq sampai kejut untuk solat dalam hatinya pasti saya akan bangun kalau kerana solat dari panggilan lain. rasa nak minta maaf kat faiq sekarang ni, maafkan mama, inshaAllah saya bangun solat tahajud bersama dia nanti.

Last two nights, i realised Faiq waned more than two bottles of milk, normally i asked him to sleep first, later on I would make another one middle of night. but this time i made it anyway so that he could sleep. he even said thank you. late night like that i was awaked by mr hubby because the hot drink i havent drink. half awaken i step out of the room with closed eyes i drank the drink and lied infront of tv. but mr hubby wake me again to settle on bed. I feel relief and need some real sleep. suddenly Faiq wake me up by giving his empty milk bottle for me to make for him. with mumbling i said later, sleep first.

not long after that he raised his voice and said mama solat than can make milk for him. because of i came back from long journey during long weekend i felt very flat. when i woke up it was dawn already. sadden me i didnt make milk for faiq though he figured the best way for me to wake up is only for solat but i failed to show solat is stronger than any other call. feeling to apologise to him soon,;so sad,  aim to solat tahajud with him.