Everything I do, I do it for you.

Last night, I was at a mall and heard the song "Everything I do, I do it for you" by Bryan Adams. It reminds me of my conversation with my mom. She told me that the song is her favorite, I went how come?

20 years ago, she went to the commercial bank to get money which was very huge amount. The bank told her, she was not allowed to take the money as the Central bank needs her to declare it where the money came from and why etc.

After few days, the money was transferred to her account. The bank gave her the transferred slip together with the note written "Gift from son" which the bank made it easier for her. And the real message on the note that came with the slip was written "Everything I do, I do it for you" from your son, somewhere in Tokyo.

That was the best love story between mom and son I ever heard.

mY bodY is a wonderland

Says John Mayer "One mile to every inch of Your skin like porcelain One pair of candy lips and Your bubblegum tongue" tooot - #censored:)# My mind is over my body, my head to toe body interests me more than anything, it is about clothings, touching-up and mind wondering there's no way I can get bored with my body that God lends it to me. I travelled to places to see, but myself that I think make the places lovely. The view I look for the snap spot, 80% of me had blocked the scenery. Life is so cool when nothing is essential than your body self, to appreciate the essence of life, breathing and caring for your body. I mind to be kind to the vehicle's part I owe, so I sit with my hands to give my butt a rest :)

Butt is sitting on air comfortably

the photos were deleted for awhile, sit on lotus pose then lift up your butt with your hands

Start with flying side ways :)

in plank pose, raise one hand up, secure the with one feet.

Bend backward to counter our norm bend forward mostly.

There's no magic carpet ride nor arrogance. Ends with babY-pose.

OMG is Our Song Now!

Do you love him too? :) Check, check, check, check him outtttt hehe....

Love to me is... Contest

love between grandpa and grandson on Earth

Love to me is... for the Cik Peah's Contest

Last night, I had dinner with my dad. He said Nasa had found a new planet, but the planet is hotter than the Earth. No man can't live there. If it's not hot and man can live there, he would be the first to live there :) I said oh no, you don't love your planet here on Earth hehe... He sounded he loves it but wants to feel the missing feelings towards the Earth etc...Ahaa...this is kind of related right?

When you love something, you crave for it so badly. When you have it, you are so in love with it then you would want to test your love wether you will miss it when you are not in it....kind of complicated. But most love songs go well when you want to fall in love or when you are missing something or someone. Not when you are in love...mmm...one or two you will find the kind of songs.

I love falling in love too, physically and mentally. Fall in love with something nice is beyond awesome. Love for someone physically and what they are good at like a singer is just to pass time and to develop loving feelings and the songs they sang are nicer when we walk along the beach and reminisce the past, got me :) We feel blessed and feel loved without any song on, that's the best.

Love to me is...love, loving, being loved, feel loved by, to love, in love are necessity. When it is blackout, no supplies, wait, pray and dream like we used to... like how we got influenced by the love stories' movies :) Simply...want to meet someone, drop the books in library, pick up the books and break the ice, eye to eye and back to reality. Tell mom, friends about it, get approval, the weight begins, mom's love or the found love. This love vs that love, so many kind of loves we need to consider.

This is the song since I am a mom myself

Bachelor Girl Lyrics - Buses And Trains

Hey Mom, why didn't you tell me?
Why didn't you teach me a thing or two?
You just let me go, out into the world,
You never thought to share what you knew.

(Chorus): So I walked under a bus, I got hit by a train, Keep fallin' in love,
Which is kind of the same, I've sunk out at sea, crashed my car, gone insane,
And it felt so good, I wanna do it again.

Hey Mom, why didn't you warn me?
'Cause about boys there's something I should have known,
They're like chocolate cake, like cigarettes,
I know they're bad for me but I just can't leave 'em alone.

(Repeat Chorus) Hey Mom, since we're talkin',
What was it like when you were young?
Has the world changed or is still the same?
A man can kill and still be the sweetest fun. (Repeat Chorus)

As, I am a daughter myself too, creates delima and one of the persons made me a mom,a daugther whether the child, the marriage, mom or the love because of Allah gives the best and knows the best.

Always pray to God for the greatest love to come with great gratitude. Develop love to God, He'll show you the best way and the love that you never had, love you have never expected between people, things, you have never known. You could feel love naturally and cherish it, appreciate it with Allah consent. InsyaAllah.

New 2011 Noted

Happiest New Year, InsyaAllah (Godwilling).

After eleven days, I've now got a chance to sit on my teak wood seat to key into the blog and say something with gratitude that I'm blessed to be in 2011 with my loved ones around. I just asked my son to sit still as I was preparing his bath tub. It's been a while I rotated the tasks until the maids, I have neutral feelings toward them but I can't/couldn't live without them had made me maid-less in manhattan again. Another is on the way. I need them for my new projects, anyway.

The water was filled in the bath tub for my heart and soul (in the photo with me), three drops of Johnsons bodywash, and on the side was a small pill filled with water and 2 drops of hair shampoo. While his body soaked in, I shampooed his hair. Diluted hair/body shampoo is better for him everytime (good tips for baby skincare). He's a freshed and cleaned man on the floor, exploring every corner of the four walls.

Now back on my comfy seat, 2010 was so meaningful, just love to settle in here to count all my blessings with eyes closed gets the feelings at best. The feelings is like you are so in love. Like you put your two hands together on the left chest, your head slightly tilt to the left and natural sounds come from your closed smiled lips, mmmm :)

No resolutions except for wishes and prayers to get better life as I live, love and breathe it. And enjoy it and fall in love with it again and again. Cheers 2011!

Grateful that I got to do two things at the same time :)

Love

The more I think it over, the more I feel that there is nothing more truly artistic than to love people - Vincent van Gogh

I just simply chose the title, I did not know what to type anyway, so I search the nicest phrase from Vincent Van Gogh and pasted here.

I have many ambitions at my age now, I want so much to be rich, not just rich but to make money which the money is generate itself one day, I sounded like a scientist, magician maybe. And the legacy to leave behind to the future generation, sounded like an politician lol! But my real ambition was to be in motherhood phase of life. I thank Allah for giving me that, which is only from Allah I have it and I am in it, Alhamdulillah. But I am not a mother to a princess yet, so here I go again pray to Allah everyday, everytime it crosses my mind, I ask from God that I want a beautiful solehah daughter. I admire mothers and daughters relationship, I nurture the feelings motherly feelings of a daughter. I naturally wanted a baby sister though, I never had one. So it is time for me to have a baby girl "wink" "wink" InsyaAllah.

At one point of life, I was earning love from my nephews, and still actually, I told them I love them everytime I saw them. I do that as they are the younger generations that I want to love and continue relationship in the future years to come. I can feel the loves of theirs as well. They care about me especially one of them said that he had to company me as I was a single woman supposed not to go anywhere alone. I feel touched but I didn't expect that to happen as he is a young boy and he has his own life takes over his thoughts. At least there is something nice to hear, whatever you give, you get back! - the phrase of some book. Now that I have a handsome boy of my own, I know better to love him, naturally better, not just love but I will give a beautiful baby sister to him...haha.. it is a typical human's desire, want want want :)