True Colors / Warna sebenar

Sejak dua menjak ni saya memang sibuk, kadang perlukan bantuan dari pihak mana-mana untuk menjaga anak-anak di setengah-tengah lokasi. Walaupun begitu, hati ini berbelah-bahagi untuk melepaskan anak-anak kepada mereka yang kenal betul dan yang tak berapa kenal ni. Jadinya Tuhan menyebelahi saya la rasanya sebab bila saya tanya yang ramai-ramai ni hanya untuk mendapat info masa terdesak, boleh ke tak mereka ni menolong...Terserlah sangat mereka tak mahu, ada yang mengaku jaga cucu sendiri pun tak nak (kesiannya kat cucu tu)...siap sambung lagi semua dekat umah dia pun tak mau, bila saya cakap ramai tak perlu duit dah la ni kita dah maju kan, terdiam seketika, lagipun bukan saya tanya dia pun cuma buka cerita kalau-kalau ada yang dia kenal mahu dan sudi.

Yang lagi satu pulak, cakap mereka ni RM100 sejam tak layan beb, saya bersyukur saya ada dan boleh beri.  Kesimpulan yang terlintas di fikiran saya mungkin orang sini sudah mewah. Walaupun yang ambil ratus untuk 2 jam tetapi ternampak susu cair sangat macam air bila tanya, jawapan diberi sukatan salah dan mengaku dia sendiri tak jaga, anaknya yang baru 7 tahun keatas yang buat susu dan jaga itu memberi isyarat kepada saya supaya saya tak boleh hantar lagi nanti kan. Berterus-terang begitu pun bagus juga kan.. bertambahlah orang asing di Malaysia nanti kerana terpaksa. Saya ni kalau rasa teraniaya atau menjadi pilihan untuk berseronok sahaja sebab di atas ni ada yang saya kenal dari saya baby lagi (bukan ahli keluarga) dan juga baru kenal, saya akan doa yang terbaik dan percaya Allah makbulkan. bestkan :)

sedang mencari rama-rama/looking for butterfly

Surah Al_Nasr (The Help)

Apabila datang pertolongan Allah dan kemenangan

Dan engkau melihat manusia masuk dalam ugama Allah beramai-ramai,

 Maka ucapkanlah tasbih dengan memuji Tuhanmu dan mintalah ampun kepadaNya, sesungguhnya Dia amat menerima taubat.

Since now and then, I have been quite busy, sometimes help needed from some parties of some locations. Even then, my heart is heavy with divided feeling to let my kids to be cared under known parties or unknown. So God had to be on my side as I believe the answers were most nos from them. I asked just in case for my desperate situation that I might need. Obviously that they were not willing to, some had admitted that even their grand children they do not want to, even around their housing area. Actually I didn't ask them, I was just broke the ice and bring up the topic, if I am lucky, I would have chance to have help. then I just mention that now people here are successful and money are not in need, suddenly quiet moment for awhile after i said that.

Another time, I got the response that said they dont bother RM100 babe. It matters to me and grateful that I have and I can give. To conclude here that crossed in my thoughts perhaps people are successful and achieved financial freedom. Even though I had once who willing with RM hundrehs but confessed that she didn't take care but let her daughter did, and brought back with me diluted milk like water, when asked wrong measurement as the daughter did. In a way giving me hints to not want me to send kids again. Though I gave hundreds for few hours. In fact, telling upfront is always good, moreover its a sign that foreigners will be more here under desperation. For me when feeling betrayed or persecuted or im an option to have fun, I will pray and believe that Allah will grant me.I am the lucky one right: :)

The Help

  When comes the Help of Allah, and Victory,

And thou dost see the people enter Allah's Religion in crowds, Celebrate the praises of thy Lord, and pray for His Forgiveness: For He is Oft-Returning (in Grace and Mercy).